Welcome August. :))

Well, can't believe we finally arrived at the 8th month of the Year. 2012 finally will come to its end and we'll move on to the 2013 with a good grin. :)))

It is weird actually to finally realize that you are currently almost in the end of year when you're recalling that exactly at the end of last year you became so perfectly anxious with many issues including the Mayan's and stuff.

And now, I finally at ease and believe, inshAllah, we'll have much longer time to make the world better.

I do admit these year is begin with many anxious feeling about the so-called prophecy and so many news that kept me thinking the heck is it going to be real? Then again I realized that I've put too much belief in this issues and kinda forget about Allah's promise about the End. I do realize that at the beginning that I'm too overly about this and I should get nearer to Him. And yeah, I'm right. Finally, now, I feel being loved so much and grateful to everything that has happened. Thank you. :)

By the way,

I do recall many things, and you must be surprised at how I still remember your promise to meet up at this month which well, that conversations happened two years ago and none of it happen. :)))

But, to be sure, I'm (still) waiting.

 

Let it go,

I've done it. At the first time in my life I've said it.

I finally said, well, not literally said it since I use Text. I said things that I've been so longing to say for this past few years that I has become a really anxious feeling and it feels sucks. Suck the entire capacity of my heart.

I realized that people will not know that you love them if you ain't say it. And be honest with it.
I daresay I'm not really into a straight-forward personalities when it comes to personal feeling and affection.

So, today, I let it flow and I let myself say it. And trust me, It does feels great.

I let myself say everything. From what I've been reckon happened, my self-battle between ego and conscience. And how it really affects me in this few years.

I let myself to admit that I sometimes can be a bitch. A real hot-blooded and hard-headed bitch.

I let myself to admit that there're things that really left answered and I must openly accept it.

I let myself to get over up my own ego and just let my conscience do the rest.

Being a reasonable and logic person is sometimes feels like shit. When you starts to make all things reasonable and logically but not all things have its own reasonable and logic answer, no?

And when finally I encountering that kind of problem, I tried to find a hundred reasonable and logical answer to atleast make it reasonable. And when no one seems fits, I'm getting perplexed, dreamy, and insecure. Boo-yah!

Here comes the bitchy part of me. The more I tried to solve it the more perplexed I'm become. Shit.

So, thank you to my bestfriends that still accept me even when I'm in the bitchiest stage of me. And let me know how bitchy I am when I let them know what I've become. Thank you. Love.  




You guys don't deserve getting perplexed too, really. And I don't want you guys get burdened by it. You guys are too valuable and precious to be burdened by this kind of thing. ;)

Let the time flows and Allah'll answer it nicely. And to that time comes, I'm going to be so prepared for whatever the answer is.



Yahay~ cheers, people.

And happy fasting! Ramadhan Mubarak! <3

She's getting married and I was like.....

My classmate finally married yesterday evening.

Menikah! Menikah, sodara-sodara! Di umur saya yang masih super belia  muda ini. Dia udah melangsungkan pernikahan. Bukannya saya tidak suka, I'm kinda into it, actually. 


Tapi yang agak disturbing itu fakta bahwa dia sudah siap memulai bahtera rumah tangga dan saya disini........ masih tetep merasa tidak ada perubahan yang berarti walau sudah 2 tahun meninggalkan kancah sekolahan. Sikap sama. Muka apalagi. :|

The Idea that I somehow in the so-called marriageable age is a bit, duh, terrifying.

I'm so into marry-at-young concept, actually. I love the idea that we do grow together, to face the adultery world together. *tsaelahlah ini bahasanya gimana*

Tapi pas dihadapkan kenyataan, lu siap kagak?  *guling-guling*

Selamat Riska! *iye, itu dia yang ditengah*

Oh ya, selamat menempuh hidup berdua, neng Riska! :D 
You did look great yesterday. InsyAllah, Sakinah, Mawa'dah, Warahmah! :*