Let it go,

I've done it. At the first time in my life I've said it.

I finally said, well, not literally said it since I use Text. I said things that I've been so longing to say for this past few years that I has become a really anxious feeling and it feels sucks. Suck the entire capacity of my heart.

I realized that people will not know that you love them if you ain't say it. And be honest with it.
I daresay I'm not really into a straight-forward personalities when it comes to personal feeling and affection.

So, today, I let it flow and I let myself say it. And trust me, It does feels great.

I let myself say everything. From what I've been reckon happened, my self-battle between ego and conscience. And how it really affects me in this few years.

I let myself to admit that I sometimes can be a bitch. A real hot-blooded and hard-headed bitch.

I let myself to admit that there're things that really left answered and I must openly accept it.

I let myself to get over up my own ego and just let my conscience do the rest.

Being a reasonable and logic person is sometimes feels like shit. When you starts to make all things reasonable and logically but not all things have its own reasonable and logic answer, no?

And when finally I encountering that kind of problem, I tried to find a hundred reasonable and logical answer to atleast make it reasonable. And when no one seems fits, I'm getting perplexed, dreamy, and insecure. Boo-yah!

Here comes the bitchy part of me. The more I tried to solve it the more perplexed I'm become. Shit.

So, thank you to my bestfriends that still accept me even when I'm in the bitchiest stage of me. And let me know how bitchy I am when I let them know what I've become. Thank you. Love.  




You guys don't deserve getting perplexed too, really. And I don't want you guys get burdened by it. You guys are too valuable and precious to be burdened by this kind of thing. ;)

Let the time flows and Allah'll answer it nicely. And to that time comes, I'm going to be so prepared for whatever the answer is.



Yahay~ cheers, people.

And happy fasting! Ramadhan Mubarak! <3