No.

Well, scrambled day it is.

After being so undeniably sensitive last night, without apparently logical reason. 

Cried a night out for just a tiny little flashed memory. I feel dumb.

Then started the day with only 15 minutes face to face moment with the Teacher--yeah, I was late, yeah, he was too, yeah, he just jumped in the class, took a moment to call out every student's name, took a minute breath to divide the class into a few little groups and then swung out the class without a regret.

Darn it. 

Maybe this is what it's called the-punishment-of-me-not-being-punctual. Or as I ever mention, that the teacher himself is very well-known because of his tardiness. But yes, it's my fault because expecting him to keep like that on and on.

It is actually hard to think so much and expect so much in the same time, but do nothing instead. It's like asking for a whole fortune to fall from the sky while we busy praying without do nothing. Pointless it is.

But many of us actually have done this, no? Asking so much but do not much.
Instead, they live in the unsatisfying life. At least, according to them. Honestly, if they stop a second to think, just to think a simple question about themselves, "Do you deserve it?".

If you really want that life you've been dream on, "Do you deserve it?", because not a person in this world live in the life they don't deserve. If you want that life, WHY NOT TRY TO START CHASING IT INSTEAD?

In every life, in every phase, in every moment and condition is belong to a person that deserve it. If you want another life, please do try to chase it. Work hard and you'll earn it. That's what I thought.

To be sure, I hate a nagger. I hate those who always mumbling and whining about their-so-called-miserable-life because that's pretty sure show how dumb and mindless they are. I hate someone who dream of a life with full of fortune but got nothing to do, instead they just like, "Ah, I wish....".

Sorry, guys. I'm not brought up with such attitude. My parents thought me to live my dream, to chase it, to make it come true. And I somehow proud, because they've become such a great parent And I also proud to my brothers, for being able to stand up for themselves.


I know human can't live alone, but there're certain things that we need to settle alone.

A dream is made to be chase, not to be easily come for. 

Recalling.

I must say I am no good at remembering.
A person, detail, moment... are not my specialty.
BUT I DO REMEMBER FACE!

Things always seems so blur to me, I can't remember what happened this morning, or even, a joke that had been told years ago. I can't remember a story when its told. I even can't retold a story. Apparently I'm no good at story-telling either, yes?

So what the heck I do remember?

I remember the feeling when a joke is being told, whether its flatter me, make me laugh till i cry, or just make me do a fake-laugh. I remember the feeling when I hangout with my friends, the happiness, the sadness, the sympathy, but never its about what the hell is being told there.

Maybe I'm good at remembering feelings, yes?

That's why whenever a hangout session is occurred, my part will be the one laughing hard and the one give advice. There're no parts of me story-telling, cause i got no stories to tell, i got no moment to remember.
And yes, I never remember who's birthday is when or else. A, sorry....

Pardon me, for being so easily forget, for being a jerk with no attention to pay to.
Darn, I'm so right brainer... and Sherlock-y. *uhuk*


Cheers,


P.S: But there's a moment that without even struggling to, I do remember. Which, for me, I feel that quite extraordinary. Yes.. that dream.


Updated: I realize that I'm a present-person, no? That I tend to live the moment, live the present, forget the past and face the future with a good grief. I tend to not care about what has been passed and what's not. What I care, is to make the present being meaningful, useful and not wasted.

-- Live with no regret, live life to the fullest