No.

Well, scrambled day it is.

After being so undeniably sensitive last night, without apparently logical reason. 

Cried a night out for just a tiny little flashed memory. I feel dumb.

Then started the day with only 15 minutes face to face moment with the Teacher--yeah, I was late, yeah, he was too, yeah, he just jumped in the class, took a moment to call out every student's name, took a minute breath to divide the class into a few little groups and then swung out the class without a regret.

Darn it. 

Maybe this is what it's called the-punishment-of-me-not-being-punctual. Or as I ever mention, that the teacher himself is very well-known because of his tardiness. But yes, it's my fault because expecting him to keep like that on and on.

It is actually hard to think so much and expect so much in the same time, but do nothing instead. It's like asking for a whole fortune to fall from the sky while we busy praying without do nothing. Pointless it is.

But many of us actually have done this, no? Asking so much but do not much.
Instead, they live in the unsatisfying life. At least, according to them. Honestly, if they stop a second to think, just to think a simple question about themselves, "Do you deserve it?".

If you really want that life you've been dream on, "Do you deserve it?", because not a person in this world live in the life they don't deserve. If you want that life, WHY NOT TRY TO START CHASING IT INSTEAD?

In every life, in every phase, in every moment and condition is belong to a person that deserve it. If you want another life, please do try to chase it. Work hard and you'll earn it. That's what I thought.

To be sure, I hate a nagger. I hate those who always mumbling and whining about their-so-called-miserable-life because that's pretty sure show how dumb and mindless they are. I hate someone who dream of a life with full of fortune but got nothing to do, instead they just like, "Ah, I wish....".

Sorry, guys. I'm not brought up with such attitude. My parents thought me to live my dream, to chase it, to make it come true. And I somehow proud, because they've become such a great parent And I also proud to my brothers, for being able to stand up for themselves.


I know human can't live alone, but there're certain things that we need to settle alone.

A dream is made to be chase, not to be easily come for.