Inspired.

There're certain times when you feel you can do anything, that you have this certain power to make dreams come true.

For me, that's called Inspiration.

An inspiration is hard to achieve, sometimes hiding to the deepest labyrinth of your brain or maybe can meet you in a great green park.

One can be so inspired, yet become so hollow and numb at the other.

One is hard to be inspired all the time.

Today I've become so inspired. After roamed around the town and attended the traditional games fair, saw how an awesome picture been made, saw laughter and happiness.

But the moment I was so happy about today was when I borrowed a friend bicycle and took turn to wander alone the area. Myself. Without a smartphone. I challenge myself and my intuition to find a way back to the place, and I did succeed. I found my peace as I cycled to the small village, as the wind blew to my face, as the green of the field refreshed my eyes. Nothing beats that.

I guess the way to get everyday inspired is to be around a bunch of happy, creative and inspirational people.
As one the Prophet ever said, "To be a good person is to be around good people".

Maybe inspiration sit really near with happiness and gratefulness, no?

Because aside for being so inspired today, I feel so grateful for everything, ya Allah.
Everything. Thank you.

20th at the 20th.

The time shows 10:52pm of 20th October 2012.
Yes, today is my birthday.
And to be sure, I feel so grateful today.
Eventhough it's Saturday. :)

So the day started with simultaneously beep from my phone.
I was feel a little bit tired and decided to ignore it and go back sleep. Darn, this is my birthday, and so what? I can get my solitude now and I don't care about greetings. Was the thing that I thought. I never be the happy-birthday-let's-go-party-girl type, instead I'm--moreover--a loner. Especially when it comes to my big day.

At 10, I finally woke up and yeah, a bunch greetings were already there. At first, I don't get too excited. But, clearly I realized that the greetings from Twitter were from all the people I know well and atleast, close to me. Suddenly I felt happy and replied them with things that if you ask me, would never been occurred when it comes to facebook. It's not just a merely "thankyou! :)". Small portions greetings of my well-known friends but it made my day. The idea that they probably greets me not because the birthday notification from FB make me happy and feel loved.

Two friend of mine even mentioned me when they were on air. :)))
Precious. They say, "Happy birthday to our friend, Ai, who have her 20th birthday today at 20th October! Wait, 20th birthday on 20th October! Cool!"

Crap. It made my day even brighter. :)

Then spent the rest of the day with my SHS friends, do chitchat, and clearly, I forgot what today is.

My idea of a birthday is not make a party, nor held it with cake nor treat everyone because I should but because I WANT. My idea of a birthday is to have a day just for me, alone, and maybe, deep inside, i hope to be forgotten, just a bit. :)

But today is okay, no "Happy birthday" song, no "party", no cake. I love it.

Thank you guys, for the greetings, the love, the chat. Trust me, I never felt this good.
No need to celebrate my day. Cause I don't want it either. Hahah. Just remember me, and your pray and greeting is enough. Because not the celebration that matter but the unity and love that matters. 

Today I'm overwhelmingly happy and grateful. Thankyou. :)

Every one has its own type for a birth-day. Eventho you guys ain't give me a surprise, I still love it. Thankyou, guys. Love you all lots. :*

Totally Exhausted

It's been a week since my teacher gave us the task to make a simple yet meaningful animation which, he said, the deadline will be the next 4 weeks.

This is basically the 2nd week, and I'm exhausted. I've been living a really hectic life ever since. Meeting my team-pal like everyday and everynight, trying to not think absurd and blow things off when i feel my project is not going well.

Maybe because my project is basically different from the others. Or maybe, I'm not have the confidence of my own idea...

I really need a day to rest, really. To sleep all day and to not think a thing about it. I want to be alone. To be forgotten for just a moment. I need my solitude.. 

But guess I can't get this off my mind until it finish, so just be patient and work this fast then finally I'll have my holiday~


YES.