Apparently not. :'((((
Moron.
So, this three years thoughtful-'essay' is gone forever. I can't call it my diary since I don't put everyday routine there. I just put my thoughts and idea. Now it's gone, moron me.
My impression from the very start of my college life, the unfamous-weird-things that happened to me and my thoughts about it. Gone.
Why the hell I even forgot to backup it?! Aaa!
That note supposedly--and I know it is--is the substitute of my memory-part of my brain since I am having trouble to remember things and moments and how my thoughts about it. I put my idea, my idealism and principal there and made a really long essays about it whenever I'd like to. So when I back and reread it, I'll have the same determination and goals to live.
Now, since it's gone--in which is all my own freakin fault--I thought I'll start to make a new one.
But one thing I really regret about it is the flash-moment of everything and the precious thought and prespective what I was actually had been through all these years. Because you ain't feel and get the same moment twice. I don't think I'll be able to rewrite it perfectly. Maybe I'll just remember some parts or none at all.
maybe this is just the sign to 'start use your brain and develop your memory section more' or the 'start a new phase of life' kind of thing. I dunno.
I just want that dream to happened again. That's just it.
Always double cross check for everything. Don't let yourself filled with regrets afterwards.
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